Life officialy keeps getting worse…Its like I hit the bottom and keep falling.  I’m broke, bored, and have no changes of taking new photos. why you say, well I bought a new camera to take photos, its not a SLR because seriously they are two expensive and I have other things to save for. Then of course I had a chance to going to the board walk to take images but my sister didn’t want to so of course she gets the say and we didn’t go. Though we did all she wanted to do. Basicly at the moment I take priority under grass, will be that way I am 24 and on my own.

That song pretty much expresses all I feel right now. My parents think they understand me when they completely have it wrong. To start my future career is being a math teacher. Yes Rob was a great inspiration to my future but not in the way that they see it. He proved to me that just and ordinary person can be a teacher and that its possible to make math not so boring. On the other hand my parents think I am “infatuated” by him just because I found him cute at the beginning of the year and talked constantly of his class. I tried telling them the only reason is that one of my close friends Steph was in that class and its the only class that was actually fun and the only one where the teacher joked around with us and stuff. And infatuated is a little harsh don’t you think? obsession? yeah right. Besides it wouldn’t be a foolish and unreasonable to like him seeing that people these days marry 9-11 years older, not that I would. o.O they should really look up the definition of it. “Passionate Love” yeah… no XD the closest thing I’d be for him is “Passionate to be friend” maybe… The second thing is the “she’s a teenager” excuse that kills me. I try speaking out and all I get is “ooh stop being a teenager”… you know I have feelings too… They think I just act so because I’m a teenager, how un understanding is that? Just because we are teenagers doesn’t mean that we are emotionless and just have no reasoning.  I just wish they’d understand me a little more.

In other news I’m having a major issue…. I have to make a birthday list but I pretty much buy myself what I need, seeing I have a job. I’ll be posting my list up for my friends and family that ask for it.

XD ooo I bought sharpies and designed my wallet, check it out (click for bigger):

If anyone wants one I’ll make you one for 18-20$ CAN that includes free wallet and free shipping.

woah I haven’t been here in ages! work is killing me! I enjoy the money but eech 21h a week hurts. I’ve worked everyday this week. I’m so happy to have Monday off I don’t care if they ask, the answer will be NO. A day off… such a beautiful thing. Tomorow will be a killer, a 8 and a half hour shift, my feets are going to kill me xD at lease I have a lunch break and get to work with Jen on my extended part. I’ve been working on  my spare time on fractical art that is pretty sweet.

ooohhh I went to North Rocks the Bay music festival and got to see hedley live. It was funny because they were driving in a golf cart and almost hit me. I knoticed after it was them and said “hey its hedley” and just continued walking normally. Jaccob the lead signer (XD that I didnt know that was his name till girls were screaming it)turned and wayved at me and Mich. We also got to hagn around with Ricky from Futures Past a new band thats really awsome. I also met the band futures past and had a lot of fun talking to them! you really need to check them out! they have myspace xD

Shout out to FP! Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past Futures Past.

I’ll actually be adding stuff soon.

I’m very sad at the moment.. I lost the bracelet my boyfriend bought me for christmas I can’t find it anywhere. I made sure I wasn’t going to loose it and guess what… I lost it  I don’t want to ask for an other one because I know he has a lot to pay for and I’m not going to buy myself an other one because it wont be special. That bracelet meant a lot to me it was special :( 

I’m going shopping today and I’ll see my money flash before my eyes. I found some jeans I want to buy last week. If they are still on sale I’ll buy them for 69$ but if they arnt I’m not paying 80$ for them.

This week I’m alone to work on my writing. I’m happy but not sure how much I will actually get done. The courses I went to for driving (still have one left) are boring, they tell me everything I already know. I think my story is going well, I pretty much planed everything out. Rob finally cleared everything up and told me that I can add him next year I’ve also been working on my art, I drew a few pictures I’ll be posting on my deviant art account. Also my laptop should get here by friday I hope the only thing I am not looking foward to is adding all my files from both PC desktop computers onto my laptop. I probably wont be able to code much because I don’t really know how to use image ready and I wont be able to have paint shop pro until I see Dianne and borrow her Windows XP.

XD I had a special moment a few days ago. I started a new story again lol this time I am really into it. Its called 30 seconds. I was soo in it and its all creepy so when the phone ran I almost fell off my chair; it scared me half to death because it was all quiet. I think this story will work out because I already wrote the ending making it apperently easier to write

Oh and I ordered my laptop, a Macbook <3 I put down 200$ and will pay the rest once it actually comes in. i even bought photoshop CS for one 56$ because its an older version it was 75% off of its price of 199.99$ I will get it in two weeks =) I can’t wait :)

heya everyone! summer is here for me, school is done. As cool as it seems I’m sorta sad its over, I’ll miss Rob and the moments me and Steph had. I’m feeling lonley thease days and my parents think I’m going depressed. I think I might ditch the whole wordpress thing and go with just a normal site cuz I don’t really use any real functions other than add news and pages.

Good news I only have two days of school left! woot! and we get our year books thrusday. Bad news is that Pat is offcialy an Offical jerk he’s soo mean to Rob.  In French class I almost flipped out on him, no one but Pat deserves to be treated that way. All he says are lies! and he is even making people turn against him. I shall never turn on my math teacher, never! he’s done nothing wrong. I hope he knows I’ll stick by his side =) .They actually had a meeting with the pricipal cuz he kepts getting sent to the office. I’m not sure how it whent but I do know cutie innocent chibi guy tried to make up with the evil looser. The guy needs to learn that some people, it dosen’t matter if they hate you.  Pat being an *** as he is refused to say “there cool now”. I think after this I’ll need anger managment. I’m just praying chibi-san dosen’t get in trouble :( I’ve decided to start writing more before I loose it and going on an insult rampage. All I know is that I don’t want to get involved but If I have to I will defend, besides I’m already unpopular so wats the worst they could do to me?  

I started work today at a groccery store. I am dead tiered and hate it. The job itself I like its the endless codes I don’t know. I think with practice I’ll get it but right now it stinks. An other thing is I don’t exacly fit in All the people I worked with today are already friends. I was the only 11th grade College Notre-Dame girl. At like 9 to 9:30 we clean and then chill. I felt such like a reject, everyone was having conversations and stuff, I sorta tried to blend in. Well tomorow all the ones that were there today wont be tomorow so I’ll get to start again My tranning lasted like 20 minutes then I was like alone for the rest of the night :S

working saturday will be scary O.O I work 2-6 I dont think I’ll ready. Its really busy but on the bright side I don’t have to close =D

I’ll probably like it more if I eventually make some friends.

yea wow I’m already tierd of this one. I think I’m going to go more with a layout with only brushes ^^”

I finally got a job!!!!! Food Basics called me yesterday and told me that I was hired and all I needed to do is pick up some papers. I’m going to be a casheer, I get to charge people and count money! Though the next two days will be verry busy. I need to first off finish… errr start my english reasearch paper due soon. Then at 4:30 I go to get my ears pierced again =D I’ll have three on each ear finally! Then I have an appointment at 5:00 at Scotia bank to sign up and get a letter to declaire the account is myne for my boss. On friday I have to shop and buy black pants and shoes for work after that I have to update my site and make my boyfriend’s layout. I guess I should get started with this one

xox kaiyarii